wait until the dust gets settled

"the best you can do is put your chin up and push through it."


i don't have the time to be not fine.

I lost my footing and I fell into the night.

I need the windows to stop rattling. I need the wind and cold to go away, and the sun to come out. I need my sick, my cold to leave my body. I need to find my sense of belonging again. I need to stop acting like everyone's mother. I need to get over him. I need to get my focus back from wherever I lost it. I need to go to college, but first I need to get over my fear of commitment, of change especially. I need to grow some patience. I need to put my priorities in order. I need to grow up. I need to go away, to get out - I need to be by myself, I need to be with everyone. 

I need to stop spending all my time thinking about what I need.

I need motivation.

"I need to live. Don't tell me to wait."